“I will call upon
your name and keep my eyes above the waves
Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders, let me walk upon the waters
wherever you would call me, take me deeper than my feet could ever wander and
my faith would be made stronger in the presence of my Savior.”
(Oceans – Hillsong)
(Oceans – Hillsong)
Eyes swollen, tear-stained pages of my journal, my Bible underlined,
written on and highlighted, scared of the next step and determined to conquer
the world at the same time. I’ve felt
this strong feeling for a while, I’m ready, show me where to go from here.
In a season of waiting it can be difficult when all life tends to throw
at you is the word no, not yet, later, hold on, etc. It can be utterly discouraging and emotionally
exhausting. I thought you said I was
ready, why are you making me wait? Can you even hear me?
If you ask me, it’s the word that most of us have despised since the
moment we first heard it. That word
that disgusts us because we know we are not getting what we really want. As
hard as it may seem to fathom, as much as we want to fight against it with all
our might, just maybe that “no” is temporary.
A simple no doesn’t always mean forever, it quite possibly may be no for a
season, a matter of protection to keep our heart pure, and potentially protect
us from a bigger rejection or hurt. God
does know the perfect time to say yes, but as much as I hate to admit it, I
still want to sulk into my pillow and scream when I hear the word no from
something I really wanted or I think I am ready for.
“Have mercy on my,
Lord, for I am in distress. Tears blur my eyes.
My body and soul are withering away.” Psalm 31:9
My body and soul are withering away.” Psalm 31:9
In a season of waiting I always tend to think of David. This was a man who was least considered in his
family. I bet he thought nothing good
would come from his existence. He was
despised and rejected for much of his life.
Someone who was chosen last but still kept going. Despite several failed
attempts at life, David was still known as a man who was devoted to God. Much like all of us, we fail from day to
day. It’s when we realize where we fell
and turn to our Savior to help us back up.
We can’t do it alone and we don’t have to, even though it may seem like
it at times.
Father God, when I feel like giving up, help me put my trust in You, my
God, my strength when I am weak, my Comforter when I am scared, my
Protector. Help me keep my eyes on you
and know that you are with me in times of trouble and I’m afraid.
“You are my refuge
and my shield; your word is my source of hope.” Psalm 119:114
Blessings,
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